wierd are the ways of the world

2007-01-20T10:30:00.000-08:00

These days have been more than crazy for me....
Terrible mood swings.. bad temper... low on confidence and low in general....
At times i dont seem to undrstand myself.. There are ppl i dont talk to; ppl i care a damn about... but still they are freaking me out.... i m shocked that I m affected....The way they speak to me has never bothered me.... but the way they are in general is really pathetic..... Why the hell everything has to be blown out of proportion...... why the freaking hell is everyone suppose to know everything....If i m not talkin to ppl cant it just be the my bussiness.... Why is everyone shooting questions at me....looks like whatever i do or whatever i dont do has to be treated in a particular way... i.e. BADLY... damn it.. i m a sensitive individual.... bloody hell i really dont like to hurt anyone.. but if ppl are schmucks can i help???

2006-12-22T10:38:00.000-08:00

I THOUGHT I WAS HAPPY...

I like being busy.. really busy..... i hate the vaccations....
Y???
i dont like havin all the time on earth.... it gives me time to think...
happy thoughts.... i hate them..... coz i dont know when i ll be happy again...
i dont like human beings i guess..... i dread ppl... they always hurt me..... i like being busy.......... i dont wanna think.... life has been a bittersweet symphony.....

2006-04-09T06:50:00.000-07:00

hey..
updating the blog after ages.....
but yeah.... everything has been soooooooo..... normal and banal that nothing seemed to be worth mentioning... UNTIL...ETERNAL SUNSHINE OF THE SPOTLESS MIND....
BRILLIANT movie.... It finally made me FEEL...
I spoke to Shekhar after that... but wanted to talk to Anand...
Antways....
Watch that movie...

2006-01-16T05:18:00.000-08:00

If you, if you could return
Don’t let it burn, don’t let it fade
I’m sure I’m not being rude
But it’s just your attitude
It’s tearing me apart
It’s ruining everything
And I swore, I swore I would be true
And honey so did you
So why were you holding her hand
Is that the way we stand
Were you lying all the time
Was it just a game to you

But I’m in so deep
You know I’m such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger

Oh, I thought the world of you
I thought nothing could go wrong
But I was wrong
I was wrong
If you, if you could get by
Trying not to lie
Things wouldn’t be so confused
And I wouldn’t feel so used
But you always really knew
I just wanna be with you

And I’m in so deep
You know I’m such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to. do you have to
Do you have to let it linger

And I’m in so deep
You know I’m such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger

You know I’m such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger........... THE CRANBERRIES.....

had no idea that this song can truly describe my frame of mind this well...
(dated:10 feb 2004)

2005-12-14T09:58:00.000-08:00

when i dont wanna meet anyone....
After a long time my J.C gang made a plan.... They were all super hyper about meeting and insisted on me joining the as well... I told Ali that I wasnt very keen but he insisted on meeting... finally I was like ok.... but really did NOT intend to meet Ali even.....
I am goin mad, I guess since I have changed so much I really find it hard to have fun with them...

2005-10-28T07:29:00.000-07:00

i dont know what happens to me some times??

I am a littile more than confused.........

2005-09-08T07:09:00.000-07:00

I HAVE THE POWER....

I never realised the power I had over someone.....

I never realised that someone still longs for my company....

I never realised that someone still tries hard to make me talk to him or even look at him....

I never realised that someone hasnt forgotten about my exsistance....

I never realised that he still wants to be a part of my world.....

BUT NOW I HAVE !!!!

BUT BALLS I CARE..... :P

2005-08-20T22:55:00.000-07:00

RESULTS PLZ.....

Its been ages since examz... got OVER...but the results are no where around the coner....
All the other branches have been handed over their fate....
Although scary but i m really very anxious to get the result...
sresh and i very worried...but deepi seems to be pretty calm...
all we keep sayin is " hope all of us are happy after the result"...
Here hopin that our results are great.....

2005-08-13T11:27:00.000-07:00

when everything goes perfect that is when everything goes wrong...
when i m so happy to finally have a pot party with my closets friends and spend a quality time with them... that is when a calamity stikes...becoz i the gr8 priyanka pande decides to check her junk mail and fathoms out that her EX has been mailing her very regularly... atleast since the last 5 days... i wonder what pleasure he probably derives from invading my life all the time when i feel everything is perfect.... kick that cat on his a**. man he sucks...

2005-07-16T01:21:00.000-07:00

College started and the assignments too...
The biggest suprise this season was , Arvind Prasad teaches well....
Hes a bit boring but we can make sense from watever hes talkin...
The HOD ( who sresh calls... Hari om... Shri Hari actually..) is boring TO THE CORE..
He has a very interesting hair line and a weird beard which he doesnt bother trimming....
I wonder if his wife likes "furry" animals....
College is a lot of fun with Sresh and Deepi....
these days Deepi is in Riyadh.... for some VISA formalities...
we started doin something for GRE....
i m a bit worried but hopefully everything will fall in place....

2005-07-10T01:10:00.000-07:00

Wat a waste...
nothing seems to just work out
me and saku cudnt meet.....
i m finally meetin all my JC friends...
hope it goes well...
just hope tht viral doesnt ruin it all...

2005-07-05T10:14:00.000-07:00

Yeah... I am alive..
And happy.... after a long time...
saw this awsome movie Sarkar
AB baby was cool in it...
Tommorrow i m meetin saku after a very long time...
and i guess we r just gonna talk n talk n talk
i just hope everything works out...

2005-07-02T02:53:00.000-07:00

Yeah.... my world just suffered an earthquake...
Or must i say TSUNAMI..
wat on earth is with me...
I said i m done with him.... but even today his phone call made my heart beat twice as hard..
All I felt like tellin myself was... u suck priyanka...
all u wanted to say was i Dont give a damn and wat was it soundin like..
" I m sorry i cant come coz my moms Bday tomm.. so gotta go shoppin..."
the turth is ur scared of something n tht some thing is ur hidden felling towards tht moron...
does it even matter to him whether ur there or not....? NO...
But u r so dumb struck tht u r bloggin abt him...
THE BOTTOM LINE : U suck.....

2005-06-28T02:34:00.000-07:00

Does any one understand the meaning of BOREDOM...??
I truely do..
when your plans get washed out..(literally)
when each and every pothole cause a back ache...
man i was waitin 4 the holidays badly..
just to discover the essence of USELESSNESS...
People i really miss you....
Please come and rescue me.....

2005-06-17T12:18:00.000-07:00

wat the hell was wrong with me tht day....
tht i spoke crap to ali....
the truth is i dont care abt tht guy ne more and probably just had the most a weird out busrt of emotions suddenly....

I dont know..
its been a long time since i broke up with him...
but he was moreof a habit i guess..
i dont really miss him
but i still miss the IDEA of him...

2005-06-16T10:33:00.000-07:00

When I was LOST...
A lot it did COST...!
Ruined the days,
Wasted the nights;
thought I had what I wanted...
But to my suprise....
that "LIGHT" was an ILLUSION;
As i dreamed only of the DARK...
I desired the MOON;
As it charmed me throughout..
IT kept me away from the truthful sunlight...!
When i was LOST...
A lot it did COST...!

I pondered,
Did I choose what I got..
Or was it the destinys nasty game.....
Coz now that i have lost....
I can atleast sense how sweet victory can be;
Better than the moon ...
out shinin the stars...
The suns rays will hold my hand,
And will take me to a land of wonders..
Hoping this to GOD i surrender.....!