These days have been more than crazy for me....
Terrible mood swings.. bad temper... low on confidence and low in general....
At times i dont seem to undrstand myself.. There are ppl i dont talk to; ppl i care a damn about... but still they are freaking me out.... i m shocked that I m affected....The way they speak to me has never bothered me.... but the way they are in general is really pathetic..... Why the hell everything has to be blown out of proportion...... why the freaking hell is everyone suppose to know everything....If i m not talkin to ppl cant it just be the my bussiness.... Why is everyone shooting questions at me....looks like whatever i do or whatever i dont do has to be treated in a particular way... i.e. BADLY... damn it.. i m a sensitive individual.... bloody hell i really dont like to hurt anyone.. but if ppl are schmucks can i help???

I THOUGHT I WAS HAPPY...

I like being busy.. really busy..... i hate the vaccations....
Y???
i dont like havin all the time on earth.... it gives me time to think...
happy thoughts.... i hate them..... coz i dont know when i ll be happy again...
i dont like human beings i guess..... i dread ppl... they always hurt me..... i like being busy.......... i dont wanna think.... life has been a bittersweet symphony.....

hey..
updating the blog after ages.....
but yeah.... everything has been soooooooo..... normal and banal that nothing seemed to be worth mentioning... UNTIL...ETERNAL SUNSHINE OF THE SPOTLESS MIND....
BRILLIANT movie.... It finally made me FEEL...
I spoke to Shekhar after that... but wanted to talk to Anand...
Antways....
Watch that movie...

If you, if you could return
Don’t let it burn, don’t let it fade
I’m sure I’m not being rude
But it’s just your attitude
It’s tearing me apart
It’s ruining everything
And I swore, I swore I would be true
And honey so did you
So why were you holding her hand
Is that the way we stand
Were you lying all the time
Was it just a game to you

But I’m in so deep
You know I’m such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger

Oh, I thought the world of you
I thought nothing could go wrong
But I was wrong
I was wrong
If you, if you could get by
Trying not to lie
Things wouldn’t be so confused
And I wouldn’t feel so used
But you always really knew
I just wanna be with you

And I’m in so deep
You know I’m such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to. do you have to
Do you have to let it linger

And I’m in so deep
You know I’m such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger

You know I’m such a fool for you
You got me wrapped around your finger
Do you have to let it linger
Do you have to, do you have to
Do you have to let it linger........... THE CRANBERRIES.....

had no idea that this song can truly describe my frame of mind this well...
(dated:10 feb 2004)

when i dont wanna meet anyone....
After a long time my J.C gang made a plan.... They were all super hyper about meeting and insisted on me joining the as well... I told Ali that I wasnt very keen but he insisted on meeting... finally I was like ok.... but really did NOT intend to meet Ali even.....
I am goin mad, I guess since I have changed so much I really find it hard to have fun with them...

i dont know what happens to me some times??

I am a littile more than confused.........

I HAVE THE POWER....

I never realised the power I had over someone.....

I never realised that someone still longs for my company....

I never realised that someone still tries hard to make me talk to him or even look at him....

I never realised that someone hasnt forgotten about my exsistance....

I never realised that he still wants to be a part of my world.....

BUT NOW I HAVE !!!!



BUT BALLS I CARE..... :P